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We went to Sea World to see Super Why live in concert! She absolutely loved it and i'm so glad we were able to get in. We got to Sea World at 11:30, concert started at 12:45, we were running a little late but still had an hour and the past few times we've gone we always got in early so I wasn't worried. Boy was I wrong. I had to get her a new pass since hers had expired. They had a preschool pass, bring in a birth certificate and 4 and unders(?) get a free season pass. A lot of other people needed to get their passes too. We wait in line for a hour and only get halfway through it. It is now nap time and the concert has started, there was another at 4. Mommy didn't bring enough snacks for an hour plus wait in line, so now Melody is hungry and tired and just a little bit grumpy. The family in front of us had 5 in their family, they were also getting one preschool pass. They decided to wait any longer was just not worth the free pass so they left the line, taking us with them. Sea World was also doing buy one pass get one free so they gave us their extra pass! Thank you kind family!

Mother's day was great. I spent it with my love bug and even tried doing a Katniss braid with her hair and it turned out decently! We didn't do much or anything special but it was still nice. Boy do I love that kid. 

Baby girl loves Spider man. Do they make girl styled Spider man pjs and/or Marvel underwear, that's on her wish list.

This week was teacher appreciation week at my school! No better way to end it than with a bunch of beautiful flowers! I love my kids!

Can we start again please?

This is me starting over, starting fresh. I'm not going to go back and delete everything but from here on out it's a brand new start.

I'm Layni. I'll be 22 in a month, I have the most amazing 4 year old daughter, life has had it's up's and down's but I'm hanging in there. My favorite color is blue, I love sitting and watching the sunrise/set with a journal and a cup of tea, my God is my strength. I'm just trying to make it in this world.

I say I pride myself on commitment. My inability to keep this blog up has proven otherwise, as does the fact I haven't even stayed with the same job for a year. Though, next month I will be changing that. Even keeping up a workout plan seems to get lost after a month. It doesn't matter how excited I am or want to keep up with it, it just kind of pans out. I would blame this on the bipolar, my quickness to be excited and the quick onset of apathy. Bipolar is not a crutch though and it will not be one for me. This is my vow to stick with something. It may not be this exactly, but it will be journaling somewhere.

This is also me starting fresh. Starting over from my baggage of the past year. My fiancé left me, 2 weeks after I moved to a different city to live with him, 2 months before the wedding date. The day before my nonreturnable wedding dress came in. This is me letting go of that. I refuse to be crushed by the weight and despair that it made me feel. I will grow and learn from it. It will not defeat me.

This is me becoming the mother and person I want to be. No more excuses. It's time I made an effort to be someone I'm proud of.